My life is beautiful now. I feel like the world is going so fast and everyone is going so fast and working so much I am on a strike I never get off of. I go to the beach for six weeks it is in a very small town with one grocery story and it feels very safe. I avoid people. I can stay at home for a few days without opening the door once. The last year has been the worst I have ever been I have to force my self to even take my daughter to the dr. She was in a horrible accident in feb. and in the hospital and rehab for 2 months . 7) I am not able to go to doctor becasue i dont want to take a break from work thinking I will loose the money for the day. I get pissed off because it was not too expensive. I feel happy just thinking of being here always. Take baby steps. People just like different things. Have your physical symptoms, such as sores, wounds, or pain, impacted your lifestyle or mental outlook? I used to make my children almost sick anytime we were going to any events (basketball, softball, tennis, swimming). Thank you.. -Bree. I've gone to group and private therapy. God and you do. You need to go to therapy. Sure, I feel lonely at times and weird being the only person I know that is way happier here then there. Feb 3, 2009 4,577 0 Telford. Even though I was feeling lazy this morning I decided to make this account to reply to you. I like to garden in my yard, cook in my kitchen, and create works of art in my studio. You may say, "I feel fine, why can I not get the motivation to do anything? Why can't I just be happy and enjoy life? I live in a suburb outside of Chicago and I feel that i want to move away and start my own life away from my family and away from this small city. Learn more about Thought Catalog and our writers on our about page. From the outside in I would tell a friend in this situation that they need to listen to themselves and take the time they need. I hate talking on the phone, emails, and texting. Am I weird? Are you me? I have been with him for 15 years and married for 8 and we have 10 year old twins. Why is it so wrong? I saw your reply and felt the need to reply. I thought so but then no one's this unique so there has to be others like me? Like everyone was watching me. I used to be like that. I don't want my estate agent's services anymore, what can I do? There’s nothing that drains me more then being around people that love their phones and talk about the same shallow things. It is not as impressive as being a doctor. Even though you’re tempted to leave the house, you’ll keep yourself locked inside. I have a 86 year old recovering friend who has cancer and COPD. I know I’m 1 year late but I hope you figured things out with your girlfriend or if not atleast moved on and happy now. I hate getting out of my little world my comfortable world. When he does I will "find" a major project that just HAS to be done, so that I have some justification. But your family needs you. I sure wish I could figure this problem out. I don't want to live with my parents anymore I've been very depressed lately and recently attempted to escape the house. She is manipulative and always saying mean, rude things to me. I have gotten to the point that I do not want to leave my house. I just hate leaving my house. I literally have a mental rolodex of excuses I tell people to get out of doing things. Please note: This quiz is not meant to diagnose patients with HS. Reply. Back in 2002 I had a nervous breakdown and this has been my life ever since. I hope He is helping you feel better. Discussion in 'Pregnancy - Second Trimester' started by Lydiarose, Jul 21, 2010. I only leave my house to go across the street to visit family, which I don't even want to do. i feel the same like youu i don't know what wrong with mee... i don't want going inside only on summer ...i love staying at home talk with my internet friends they are so much cool then my real frinds (my felling). Let's keep each other in our prayers, okay? Sometimes I have energy and want to go out and other times I need to recoup or hibernate at home. The more time you spend alone, the harder it is to conjure up the energy to insert yourself back into the world. Everyday it’s something else.... EVERY FUCKING DAY!!! Any advice?? Whether you need to hire a house cleaner for routine cleaning or a professional organizer to jump start an organizational system, face your situation head on, don’t feel guilty, and get the help you need! The world keeps moving forward with so much pain and ugliness that I prefer to hide! Sorry for your pain. SHARE. I leave the house often. I always agree to hang out, go to dinner, or go for drinks a day or two in advance, but when it comes I just want to stay at home in sweatpants and relax. I think what we need to do is to go out no matter what. Sadness….and maybe elation if this payment doesn’t need to be made anymore. But, it seems like only once or twice a month, I'll go out by myself to do something, and it's only to go to the Mall to buy stuff. Incredibly depressed. You come up with lame excuses to keep doing what you’re doing. I'm the same except it's more that I'd rather not go out due to it been dull. I do however want to go out and have fun We all have made mistakes or someone close has hurt us at some point in our lives. You wonder whether things are ever going to change. I'm 25 with a 11 month old son. I take care of the house and fix all meals, but never want to leave. I have the same feelings. I have lived with my guy for 8 years and for the most part he accepts it, but every now and then he'll get really angry about it. I work for the schools and I am off 6 weeks in the summer. So I did not become a doctor. Can19uve. Have you experienced tender, swollen bumps, either on or under your skin, that may produce foul-smelling liquid and scarring? Learn about us. It would be days or a week until I go out, and if I do go out it would be for a few minutes. I don't want to go anymore! Some days are worse than others, there have been a few times that going to Walgreens caused me so much anxiety that when I got into the car I couldnt remember how to drive. The more uncomfortable situations we put ourselves in the more we will get out of it and learn how to be comfortable where ever we go. But lately, I've been missing my mom a lot and being terrified that I don't have a lot of time left with her before she dies or something like that. my name is luthando been staying with my boyfriend for 8 years , we have a 4 years old beautiful boy, the problem started when he always went out to drink and come home late , he will come back swear at me and hit me , he controls me and always threathened to kill him self when i leave him. You have to take action. I'm wondering if you found out what was wrong and what you did to help yourself ? God loves you. Share 223; Tweet; Pin 41; These past months, I let my laptop collect dust. I wanted to die. I like to create. 2) I dont go out of the house except when I have to go to work. After a gunman killed eight students and two teachers at the high school in Santa Fe, Texas, on Friday, memorials to the victims were created. I hope things are still doing great. I get this exhaustion feeling and would rather clean the house or even go to the grocery store down the road than have lunch with a friend or participate in a study group at church. I AM a very outgoing person. I don't feel depressed, or lonely or anything like that. I think u are like me ? :( I guess I'm a freak. She is still impossible. I find most people to be extremely annoying. I HATE going anyplace. 3. Hate to see him down. Hi, I was hoping for a bit of advice as I really don't know what to do. Because i am getting very upset with the looks and stares im getting off people. I am beginning to say to her things I feel terrible about. Remorse. I'm not lonely because I prefer to be alone. But a lot of the time, maybe even most of the time, I struggle with anxiety over it. I don’t know what to do or think. Source video - Top clips - Next line quiz Trust me, everyone in there will, in one way or other, have been put through the wringer by the same evil entity that is trying so hard to hurt you. Take 10 minutes outside each day, just for a walk around the block. Dedicated to your stories and ideas. I’ve always thought we had a pretty good marriage. Submit your writing to be published on Thought Catalog. 4 COMMENTS. Especially with my kids. Even the best of us feel stuck at some point. Never do I meet a stranger. This post contains affiliate links. You should get therapy if it is affecting your work or life in general. I do not know what is wrong with me. Favorite Answer. im so sorry to hear about your grandfather and dad. You experience a lot of FOMO when you’re scrolling through social media from beneath your blankets. I don't know what to do. My mom uses pity and her "history of abuse" to get what she wants. You are precious and have great gifts those around you need. by Cory Turner May 21, 2018 3 minutos. I barely go out and socialize and find a job because I feel so unnatractive. Just leave me alone! 5. But I would be miserable if I tried to become a doctor. It's New Year's Eve right now and I was at a family friends house. It feels I am trapped in a web and dont have the solution. I really don't know how much responsibility we can expect her to take for her own behaviour any more. I'm the same way, I've been lke this for what two years now, and it jst sucks, jst lke everyone else says, I'll set up plans which sound fun but when they come up I absuatlly don't wnat to go, I want to leave the house so bad but I dnt have the negery and when I do go out I get bad anxiety! I like food. We were always late. It will give you a craving for adventure. Because i am getting very upset with the looks and stares im getting off people. Life is a gift and the devil who Jesus in St. John says is a liar, thief, and a murderer just wants to make us all miserable! Before that, I was completely opposite. But the choice that I have made for myself is just as legitimate. You don’t want to sound pathetic by admitting you haven’t left your bed in weeks. Im 49, dont leave my house and dont want to, trying to deal with people WANTING me to WANT to. He had a good job and I’m currently a SAHM. Even though you’re tempted to leave the house, you’ll keep yourself locked inside. You stay stuck in a self-destructive cycle you aren’t sure how to break, even though you’re clearly unhappy. You have to start caring more about yourself and taking better care of yourself. But you also become lazy. It will make you want to venture outside, travel the world, meet new people. What's wrong with me?" I don't know what it is, but I just don't like to leave my house. It felt like he was singing to us. Always can find something to talk about to anyone, even people I just meet. I'm done. my mom is so cheap she doesn't even what to spend 2grand on a car that she likes better then me. I must say though, I hate it the most, that I have taught her this. "I don’t even want to leave my house anymore." What is this? Before I got pregnant I was very happy, in love and couldn't wait to marry him. When I left he got clean, started going to meetings and worked hard to win me back. I don't want to live in my house anymore. Im sick of trying to explain to my friends why our fridge is filled with beer, house smells of smoke, and why there's holes in door. Right before our wedding my dad committed suicide. I wouldn't wish this feeling on anyone. I never know when my next plan will be my last, and I'm not going to waste my life sitting inside hoping to die, because the truth is, we all will, we don't know when, and when we do- we will wish we had more time. 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